Unexpected Inspiration
I read a quote that read something like " At any given time you have the power to say how the story will end".
I have been frustrated and complained for years about how I was so unhappy with the education that my kids were getting in the public school system. I had gripped and cried and vented to as many people who would listen, but I continued to send me kids out the house in the morning with a kiss on the forehead while gritting my teeth. Despite my frustration I felt I did not have any other choice but to endure the public school education and to continue to supplement with what I was doing at home.
Sure I had looking into all the private schools in my area, but how were we going to afford the $11,000 a year tuition per child on a a teachers salary? I felt even more trapped by the situation, but how many of you know that God always had a ram in the bush? I attend a parenting class as a local agency here in town and I made friends with the a wonderful woman, who I admired from a far because she just seemed to have things all together with her five children and they were homeschooling. I thought to myself, I have seven children two which are still too young for school, so I couldn't possibly homeschool.
I had all the reason I would not be qualified to teach my own children; where would I start? What would I teach them? I am not qualified; I dont have a teaching degree. Will they learn? No, I couldnt possibly find the time to homeschool and do the things that I want to do with my personal life. One big underlined fear was a my own selfishness and thinking that I have waited so long to have the house free doing the day so I can get a handle on household organization and do some much needed ME Time. My friend from my parenting class knew I was frustrated with the school system and she invented me to the end of the year celebration for her home school Co-op which is CC( Classical Conversations). I was super impressed by the wee children spewing off so much information: the periodic table, history timelines and historical figures. It was mind blowing. My thought yeah this is great but how can I possibly homeschool MY children? She knowing that the end of the year celebration was not enough further encouraged me, " You can do it , we all have to start somewhere". I was motivated while we talked but super discouraged when I went home,
One last shot " Talethia, you should come to the free parent practicum". I can come and see what its all about, but I am still sure I cannot homeschool, MY children. The very first day I was in awe at the Classical model and how it has been used for years and still being used to educate the best and brightest minds in this country and aroung the world. I talked to real mothers just like me, and they had real struggles and real issues, but they were homeschooling and I felt like I too can homeschool MY children. The inspiration from a very unlikely and unexpected place...within. All this time I had been looking external for some inspiration or some proverbial node of approval for me to go ahead and homeschool MY children. I was never going to get a sign from heaven or approval from someone that it was okay for ME to homeschool MY kids. It is MY job to be inspired to do what I believe is best for MY children. So all of that to say I choose how the story ends and this one ends happy.
I have been frustrated and complained for years about how I was so unhappy with the education that my kids were getting in the public school system. I had gripped and cried and vented to as many people who would listen, but I continued to send me kids out the house in the morning with a kiss on the forehead while gritting my teeth. Despite my frustration I felt I did not have any other choice but to endure the public school education and to continue to supplement with what I was doing at home.
Sure I had looking into all the private schools in my area, but how were we going to afford the $11,000 a year tuition per child on a a teachers salary? I felt even more trapped by the situation, but how many of you know that God always had a ram in the bush? I attend a parenting class as a local agency here in town and I made friends with the a wonderful woman, who I admired from a far because she just seemed to have things all together with her five children and they were homeschooling. I thought to myself, I have seven children two which are still too young for school, so I couldn't possibly homeschool.
I had all the reason I would not be qualified to teach my own children; where would I start? What would I teach them? I am not qualified; I dont have a teaching degree. Will they learn? No, I couldnt possibly find the time to homeschool and do the things that I want to do with my personal life. One big underlined fear was a my own selfishness and thinking that I have waited so long to have the house free doing the day so I can get a handle on household organization and do some much needed ME Time. My friend from my parenting class knew I was frustrated with the school system and she invented me to the end of the year celebration for her home school Co-op which is CC( Classical Conversations). I was super impressed by the wee children spewing off so much information: the periodic table, history timelines and historical figures. It was mind blowing. My thought yeah this is great but how can I possibly homeschool MY children? She knowing that the end of the year celebration was not enough further encouraged me, " You can do it , we all have to start somewhere". I was motivated while we talked but super discouraged when I went home,
One last shot " Talethia, you should come to the free parent practicum". I can come and see what its all about, but I am still sure I cannot homeschool, MY children. The very first day I was in awe at the Classical model and how it has been used for years and still being used to educate the best and brightest minds in this country and aroung the world. I talked to real mothers just like me, and they had real struggles and real issues, but they were homeschooling and I felt like I too can homeschool MY children. The inspiration from a very unlikely and unexpected place...within. All this time I had been looking external for some inspiration or some proverbial node of approval for me to go ahead and homeschool MY children. I was never going to get a sign from heaven or approval from someone that it was okay for ME to homeschool MY kids. It is MY job to be inspired to do what I believe is best for MY children. So all of that to say I choose how the story ends and this one ends happy.
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