Wonder Wonder Woman
I was a strange kind of child growing up, one who liked to plan things and know what my next steps would be. " I am going to be a Supreme Court Justice when I grow up" then you grow and guess what life is not what you planned it to be. Fast forward about 25 years, I am a stay at home wife and mother of seven on the most amazing children anyone could ever ask for.
However, I did not always appreciate the path my life had taken. It seemed that I had cheated myself out of a life I deserved by trading in the halls of justice for a husband and a designer briefcase for a baby bag but I would have to mature to see the value in my decisions. Amidst my dreams of becoming a Supreme Court Justice while reading my old high schools diaries I was reminded that at the end of my life all I wanted to do was "make a difference in the world and a be a great writer".
"Great writer?" What would I write about? Who would want to hear about how to manage a large family on one income, or advocating for your special needs child, navigating systems, marriage woes, gifted children, couponing... church? But believe it or not over the years if I had a dollar every time someone said "you need to blog", " why don't you write" , " you should journal this journey someone can learn from it". In MY mind and in MY heart this was MY story it is MY life; too many Mys right? Yes, I thought so too. So I began wondering to myself what if I decided to write and stick to it. Not with any targeted purpose in mind except to share a piece of myself with the world.
It would be okay to be transparent to share the wonders and and woes of raising a large family in the 21st century and how we learn to balance family responsibility while building an inheritance to leave for our children. It would be okay to share the mistakes I make while parenting so that someone else does not have to. It might not be so bad to show my Wonder Woman cape from time to time as I advocate in the education system and community because it just might inspire someone else to show or dust their cape off.
I read so many times that your blog or writing has to be focused you have to pick a certain audience to address but I think my life has many audiences and one day my blog maybe for you and the next you may just have to share it with a friend. I have grown okay with that thought. I so not have a focus, I just want to share I just want to be free and be me and most of all I just want to be a great writer as my diary reminded me. I am not talking about being a great writer to the world but a great writer to myself; free of self doubt and judgement. So here goes world I share Me with You!
signed Wondering Wonder Woman
However, I did not always appreciate the path my life had taken. It seemed that I had cheated myself out of a life I deserved by trading in the halls of justice for a husband and a designer briefcase for a baby bag but I would have to mature to see the value in my decisions. Amidst my dreams of becoming a Supreme Court Justice while reading my old high schools diaries I was reminded that at the end of my life all I wanted to do was "make a difference in the world and a be a great writer".
"Great writer?" What would I write about? Who would want to hear about how to manage a large family on one income, or advocating for your special needs child, navigating systems, marriage woes, gifted children, couponing... church? But believe it or not over the years if I had a dollar every time someone said "you need to blog", " why don't you write" , " you should journal this journey someone can learn from it". In MY mind and in MY heart this was MY story it is MY life; too many Mys right? Yes, I thought so too. So I began wondering to myself what if I decided to write and stick to it. Not with any targeted purpose in mind except to share a piece of myself with the world.
It would be okay to be transparent to share the wonders and and woes of raising a large family in the 21st century and how we learn to balance family responsibility while building an inheritance to leave for our children. It would be okay to share the mistakes I make while parenting so that someone else does not have to. It might not be so bad to show my Wonder Woman cape from time to time as I advocate in the education system and community because it just might inspire someone else to show or dust their cape off.
I read so many times that your blog or writing has to be focused you have to pick a certain audience to address but I think my life has many audiences and one day my blog maybe for you and the next you may just have to share it with a friend. I have grown okay with that thought. I so not have a focus, I just want to share I just want to be free and be me and most of all I just want to be a great writer as my diary reminded me. I am not talking about being a great writer to the world but a great writer to myself; free of self doubt and judgement. So here goes world I share Me with You!
signed Wondering Wonder Woman
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